Childhood

    I think part of my biggest fear about graduating is that school is the last thing you do before you're considered a adult. When i was younger i couldn't wait to grow up that way I could do whatever I wanted, I couldn't wait to have freedom with no rules and nobody to tell me what to do, but now that i'm about to be there, all I want is my stress free, worry free life back.
        Childhood is something no one can explain, it's pure innocence from all bad in the world. Growing up is realizing everything your parents tried so hard to keep from you. All the things that they didn't even understand, all the violence and confusion of being an adult. When i was little I didn't leave my house much so it was almost as if the walls protected me from everything bad outside. All I remember caring about was my mom and waiting with my Grandma for her to come home. After I started getting older and started going to school I didn't really have friends and it didn't bother me to sit alone at lunch or recess I didn't mind, all that bothered me was the kids that picked on me. Thats when i started to realize the bad people my mom tried to hide from me. Personally I don't find it exciting to grow up, to loose the innocence only a child can have. Growing up and watching so many people in my family loose their homes or their jobs when they deserve the world now that i'm older i realized my family wasn't as happy I thought when i was little, they were just protecting me from seeing they were in pain.
              Everything looks so happy when you're a kid, the hole under your porch or the dark woods down the street, there was no fear only adventure and happiness. Once you grow up you see the world for what it really is. Growing up doesn't make you "wiser" I don't believe i'll actually understand the questions that I've asked my whole life. No matter what I do the thought of becoming a adult terrifies me, Not only because of the responsibilities and obstacles i'll have to face but my main fear is loosing the one thing i"ll never get back and it's that i'll never see the world through the eyes of a child again.