responsibilties

I think a fear that eveybody has growing up is obviously the responcablites that come along with graduating, finding ajob and moving out. It's scary to think about how much life changes, 17 years doesn't seem like a long time to me. I still remember being little and thinking about how awesome my life i'll be when i grow up i had so many plans! I wanted to be a scientist and i planned on going to collage it all seemed so simple when i looked at when i was little all i had to do was finish school, get a job and go to college. That's how everyone made it seem you know? You can be whatever you want when you grow up. Nobody tells you how hard it really is in life.
           Growing up i seen a lot of my family loose so much and i didn't know, i mean they never explained to me why we had to move or why we struggled for food, they did so much to keep me from finding out how hard things really were. I think any decent person would do that though. Now that I look back at things i realize how them hidding things from me actually effected me differently than they had planned. I don't know so many things i'll need to know in life. Everyone who says school readys you for life is lying because i don't know half the things I need to make a living. Such as balancing checks, writing checks, none of that.
            So of course i'm not prepared to be on my own in life i'm terrified of what i'll do without my mom mainly. She's helps me through so much. I already know that i have no choice though, I over think things a lot in life though, it's just a big step and a big fear i have to force myself to over come.